This has got to stop

I used to have this attitude ( I think I still do) that if I couldn’t have the $3000 couch, then I would sit on a box. Basically if I can’t have the best,or if it isn’t perfect, then I walk away from the situation and block my mind from even thinking about it. This is where books come in, it’s a great escape. It explains why I have hardly any decoration / pictures on the wall; because I can’t afford to have them perfectly matted and framed. It explains why I only have two pairs of pants and four shirts; because I can’t afford the cloths I really want. It explains why I don’t wear jewelry; because the pieces I like cost thousands of dollars. This thinking is ridiculous and self limiting and I know it, but it hasn’t changed yet.